AgenT, aka Tobi Ann, my partner in life has packed up and moved with her family across the country to Sweet Home Alabama. I spent the past couple of weeks putting together a journal book with photos from her time here along with blank pages for friends to leave their goodbye messages during her going away party. I took up a good portion of the first couple dozen pages including a letter I wrote to her from my heart.
I originally wrote 06-05-14 but it was written in her book June, Friday the 13th, 2014. Which was the same day as her going away party.
Here is my letter:
Dearest Tobi Ann,
It hurts my heart to be writing you this goodbye letter. The thought of you leaving makes my insides sick and I feel empty. But I am trying to be strong so I can give you the support you need. I am already planning in my head our future visits and the next stages of our website.
From the moment we met it was an instant connection. I knew how rad of a person you were. A level that rad I wasn't so sure I was worthy of your company. Little by little we became better friends and soon damn near inseparable. Almost like sisters. I have been known to say that I don't go anywhere without my Tobi Ann. I love that we can have a great time and enjoy each other's company just sitting with each other doing absolutely nothing and I giggle at all the inside jokes we share. I look up to you for your sound and logical advice and respect you for your street and book style wisdom. That reminds me, we never did make it to Trivia Night. We would have totally crushed the competition.
It's funny, not ha ha funny, but you know, as I think back I am reminded of all that you have given to me, not just your true friendship. But even the simple surprises, like the amazing, out of stock and impossible to find Green Tea Ginger Ale case you left on my doorstep. Or those pumpkin scented candles because I was devastated BBW discontinued my favorite scent, my birthday dress and that gorgeous Kate Spade bag, the tiny kitty figurine, all those Arbonne goodies, pretty much anytime you went somewhere you'd bring me back a treasure. All the gifts you've given me, I will cherish forever.
If it wasn't for you and your influences there would not be any jewelry trees, Rolla Rolla Derby Shirt Posses, purse bars and gasp! no insanity filled evenings playing Cards Against Humanity. If it wasn't for you, there would not be an AgenTJ.co.
You have always been my greatest muse and biggest fan. Thank you for handing me the matches to light all these fires inside of me.
You mean the world to me. The bond we share, you don't just happen upon so easily, especially this late in the game. Though if you are one of the lucky few, you acknowledge and treasure it. Our hearts are Gorilla Glued together for life.
I honestly have never been good at goodbyes. You know how much I dislike change. However I trust and know this is only a see ya later and talk to you soon sort of goodbye. I look forward to hearing all about your new adventures, the people you meet and watching you excel within your business. Come December 31st - gurl, you'll be ridin' in some serious style.
I am also excited and feel honoured to get to still work with you on our website. Even though you'll be far away, I appreciate that you're only a click away. Technology - it's fuckin' fantastic!
I have truly loved watching Rhiannon grow up into such a talented young lady. She has so much potential and quite rad to boot. I am excited to see her follow her dreams and become the beautiful woman I know she will be. Though, I am bummed I didn't get to teach her how to ride a bicycle. :)
Mike has to be the coolest, level headed, scariest teddy bear of a man I have ever met. I will surely miss his silly rants, hard to understand mumblings and kind squishy heart.
Thank you for always being there for me, encouraging me and showing me just how awesome I too am just being the eccentric, silly and at times, down right ridiculous person, I am. Thank you for loving me. I am worthy!
You are forever tattooed on my heart, with every beat I will carry you with me.
My only regret is we didn't meet sooner, take more silly photos and shared loads more memories. But I am grateful to have met you in the first place, became as close as you and I are and know there is still so much more in store.
I love you always and forever,
♥ Your life partner for life,
Janessa (Agent J)
"The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected."
Content by: Agent J
